Ever think you know someone, that you have only know for a short while and then they kind of crap on you? I am not saying that I have known this person for awhile, but at the time I met them I had made a HUGE life change to change jobs, and she seemed like a welcoming co-worker. Then 4 months later I was laid off with nothing on the back burner and a whole lotta confidence gone. I was actually asked one time if I was stupid or something by another person I worked with? Nice huh?
Sorry - got distracted...anyway - only knew this person for a short while, we talked every day at work and ate together, shopped for eachother at lunch when we went to the store, made and drank coffee together, etc. I was one of the few that knew at first she was having a baby, was so happy for her, tried to go to lunch once in awhile after I was no longer there but life does happen and she then was restricted on what she could eat due to gestational diabetes, really have not talked to her allot, but keep updated on her blog...well I checked it today and she had her baby shower...awhile ago she texted me that she needed my new address for her showers coming up - one for family and one for friends, I texted her back with where we live now and have been waiting for an invite.
Now let's be honest, I was not too sure on attending,
1. because it is out of town
2. May make me feel uncomfortable to be around people I don't know or people who I used to work with, but if she had really expressed that she wanted me there I would have gone.
3. we have not talked for awhile.
But come on, why ask for my address and then not even send an invite. I went and got a gift as soon as she posted what her theme was. Now what do I do? Do I send it anyway? Do I take it back and save the money? Do I act like the bigger person and just act like nothing happened? I feel as though I shouldn't be mad but as I type this it hurts my feelings. I am only human and I shared allot of personal stuff to her about my pregnancy, birth and then after when my son got sick. - maybe she never wanted to hear all those things and just listened to me talk - not sure. I am not sure about allot of things right now. I just kills me that I, as a person put myself out there so willingly and openly only to get hurt. Maybe hurt is not the word, because like I said, I did not know this person very long but I thought that she was nice and seemed to be genuine. Maybe she thinks of me as the stalker friend that she talked crap to me about.
She got me started on this blog and will probably be reading this and then I will be the bad guy for hurting feelings, but I feel as though this cannot go unnoticed. Life is too short to not say how you feel.
...and I feel HURT!